Oct 23

Dude this guy at my job looks just like Orville Redenbacher. Yeah that’s it.

Speaking of work, why is your first day back from vacation always crazy? You would’ve thought I had been gone for weeks. I wanted to stick lots of sharp objects in my eyes today. That’s what type of day it was. Six more months. I am claiming that in six months I will no longer have to work for anyone but myself. So when it happens you were my witness that I spoke it in faith!

Irony is a tricky thing. Or maybe it’s not irony but the enemy. It’s like as soon as you say you are past something or aren’t going to do something there are all types of forces trying to hold you back. It’s like the day you decide you want to fast is the day your job provides lunch for the whole company. It’s a test to see if you have really mastered the thing you claimed you have. It makes sense. There is no way to see if you’re really over something until you come face to face with it and react differently then you did in the past.

I am proud to say I am completely healed. I got tested and passed and it feels great. Some know what I’m speaking of others don’t. It doesn’t matter either way. It just feels good to pass the test you had failed over and over. I’m thinking 2009 will be my good year. It’s not like I had a bad year. I was just so sure that this year would be the year that my life would change. It did, just not in the way I suspected. I got my heart broken, moved to New York, lost some friends, gained some friends. It has been a really hard year for me, but when I look back I think it will be one of the most important years of my life. I don’t know. I’ll let you know when I’m 80.